Pick your pockets full of sorrow, Run away with me tomorrow

Sorry i havent been posting pictures, i can't from my laptop and thats where all my pictures are, dont worry i'll have it back soon. in the mean time, for the... 1 of you who still visit my page (thanks ish!) hold tight comrades

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Alright, 10 things about me....

1. I live off 2 minute noodles and ice tea (only ever chicken and mango/peach flavors)


2. I love the rain and bad weather

3. I absolutely love The Mighty Boosh and Dexter!!!


4. I have double jointed elbows
See that? I can do that :D

5. I actually don't mind going to school, the only thing that sucks is I have to wake up at 5:30 every morning to catch a bus at 6:50 to be at school by 7:20. Its all good though, we get let out at 1:15 in the afternoon :)

6.Marilyn Monroe is queen at my house, and Elvis is king (haha pun intended) Me and my mum LOVE them


7. William Beckett is most definitely my homeboy!

8. I hate Lasagna and spaghetti, it tastes soooo bad
Ewwwww!!!

9. My cat hates me

10. And finally, I have earrings that are zippers, suck on that

I will tag............ random0002, wrappedupinmusic, FREAKishLYFREAK, fobisrealmusic, starlorsummers, twilightraindrops

It's like some new trend... I don't get it. Maybe if you had a really bad name like... random0001 maybe then. But otherwise I see it as unecessary. Someone please explain

I finished FOB trail finally! Took me like 20 tried coz everyone keeps dying of conjunctivitis haha. Sadly, only Patrick and Joe survived the journey >

Yeah they played at our school today which I thought was extremely cool. They hail from Brisbane and sound alot like Shortstack who, coincidentally, they are playing a few shows with. My ears were blocked for like an hour afterwards coz I was standing right next to the speakers. They're awesome, I got to chat with Hugh (the drummer) after they finished. Two concerts in one week WOOO!!!!

So I will start off this journal saying I WAS NOT WAGGING! Keep this in mind when you read.

 

Today, Feb 11th (Happy Birthday Bilvy I love You!) was our school's swimming carnival. Unfortunately, me and my friends didn't hand in our permission slips in on time and couldn't go, so we decided to go shopping instead of staying home. When we got to said mall, one of my friends informs me that the school had called up the mall and instructed the security guards to kick out any kids from our school. We go inside and there, right by the Target are two big guys in suits looking at us weirdly. They come up to us and ask what school we go to. Knowing this would happen, I contemplate saying "I no speak english" or some gibberish. But no, we succumb to their massive muscles and menacing looks and leave quietly. So the principle said if we weren't at the carnival, we were to be home studying... ppssshh like thats gonna happen!

1. I am outraged at our principle, she has no right to dictate what I do outside of school

2. I am outraged that it has come to this

3. We just went to a different mall anyways

 

Has there ever been some ridiculous rule that your school?

Currently, I am sitting in the back of my dad's car in the garage because our internet connection doesn't work anywhere else at the moment. It is about 35 degrees and the humidity is sky high. That is the product of summer. I wouldn't mind it if it wasn't SO hot, but now I find myself taking cold showers and living in my pool. My skin is constantly sticky with sweat and im always thirsty. I hate wearing shorts and singlets 24/7. I hate listening to the crickets hum outside my window. I hate that I burn in the sun so easily so now I hide from the sun like im a freaking vampire.

I want the wind to blow cold again, I want to wear my hoodies and jeans again. I want Winter.
The good thing is we get lots of thunderstorms in summer and I LOVE thunderstorms. Anyways, im sure the rest of you over in America have snow and cold air.... I envy you

So I decided that i'd had enough of pouting and being down, and I noticed that my recent journals have reflected that, but now im going to post a happy one... as optimistic as it can get anyway. Holidays are here, the festive season is upon us and in exactly four days (for me and others in Australia) i'll be the happiest kid in the word again.
Its sort of magical in the sense of the feeling that christmas gives. Whenever someone mentions it I get all fuzzy and excited. If you are an Eboneza Scrooge then this doesn't apply to you though.

Christmas eve you just can't sleep no matter how hard you try, you can't get your mind off the shiny wrapped presents under the tree. Or the relatives that you haven't seen in FOREVER that come to see you. The massive breakfast/lunch/dinner that will be sure to leave you with a food baby. The sometimes good, sometimes bad christmas movies that play over on every channel.

Just the feeling that it gives you, if we could bottle it we'd have the most powerful happy drug in the world. All the stress before hand with buying presents and preparing will just melt away. One whole day to relish in your family and the smiles and the awesomeness of this holiday. Im excited, I hope you are.

Happy holidays everyone and I hope Santa gets you what you wished for

Man I am so sick of everything. My friends are having crisis's within crisis's and now i've lost about half of them just by being involved... Well, I never liked them anyways. I am so so so so glad I won't have to deal with them next year.

Schoolwork is mounting up even though its the last three weeks and exams are doing my head in. I seem to have done well so far but that doesn't ease my stress. I have a headache like every night from studying.

Oh, and the single thing that is pissing me off so much right now is labels. Today I got called emo coz I wear black nail polish and my hair just happens to be closer to black than blond. Then I got called a tomboy coz I wear pants more than I wear skirts! WTF!
It never ends, and I know not to let it get under my skin but how am I supposed to ignore it constantly. I am worn out and desperately seeking a door out of this hell that has become my life.

The winter white lay down its carpet, we tread barefoot across the snow, leaving footprints leading nowhere.
Your eyes wide open, bright and blue, take in mine and don't look back, neither do my own.
Ivory skin gleams as iced flakes fall upon you, swirling through chilled air.
Staring at silky screens of black spread out across the sky, sunken stars tease me to touch but instead I reach for you.
And in this moment of perfect clarity

I see you reach for me too

I feel really crap at the moment and I have no idea why. It's a mix between waking up hungover with a bad taste in your mouth and the bad feeling in your gut when you know your doing something really, really bad. The thing is, I havn't done anything bad, and I don't drink so I can't be hungover.

Lately I've been confused about my place in the world and whether or not I like where I am and the people im with.
Like, recently there's lots of trouble with one of my friends and I don't know if I want to be her friend anymore. And then I take a long hard look at who else Im involved with and Im not sure that I like them either. I don't have anything in common with them at all and all they do really is annoy me. I want to have a new set of friends and hang in a new scene, someplace where Im with the people who are like me and accept me instead of calling me weird (Duh I already know that!).

Sometimes I feel like the people who I do consider my true friends don't even like me at all.

I can't figure it out.

But im afraid that if I do, I'll find answers that I don't like

The silence hath falls upon ones ears
Is never exact in ones presence
Always, constant is the sound
Of noise, in it's essence

Slave of gravity, drip
Drive yourself into the ground
Ripple through the air
The waves of your sound

Creak door, make shudder
Make shiver my spine
When pushed ajar
The door of mine

Thy wind blow bitter
Now and before
Thy wind make dance
Leaves across the floor

Light of moon cast over room
When a body turns in dead of night
Slowly waken, darkness taken
Creak of bed and curse thy's plight

Always to the utmost extent
Is there breath rising through the lips of a soul
The beat of a heart incased by frail ribs
And the tick of the clock as we all grow old

So right now its almost 6 'o clock and there's a thunderstorm outside with lightning and everything, its the second day of spring and it's like 30 degrees...The air is heavy in my lungs and thunder makes my walls shudder... Im pissed because my i-tunes decided to delete itself and now I have nothing from 310 songs...I have to re-do them all and its gonna take ages... To pass the time im reading old comic books I found at the markets today... Music currently rocking my ears? Still 'Fast times at Barrington High' and a little from 'Dead Letter Circus'... In the mood for pamcakes....Thanks for tuning in....

So the other night I had the pleasure of feasting my eyes upon the brilliance of the above mentioned bands. I was seated (boo!) and there was two parts to the floor. Coz it was an indoor stadium-ish thing the air looked so hazy like beijing and it was hard to see but anyway, Cobra came on pretty soon and knocked everyone's sock's off.....Gabe noticed the separation of the crowd and blamed it on the "stupid democratic political pricks" I think he said. They played guilty pleasure, send my love to the dancefloor, hollaback boy, church of hot addiction ect... (William helped out on Snakes on a plane) Ryland was rocking this extreamly white suit I have to add...

TAI came after and I hyperventilated at the sight of william. They were everything I hoped to see and sang pretty much everything I wanted; especially Summer hair = forever young. There I was grinning and dancing like a fool, loving it. I so wanted to go down the the floor and dance up at the stage but you needed special tickets (Gabe was right, stupid pricks!) I think someone stage dived, and If im right I think it was Sisky. About a girl, big mess, checkmarks, classifieds, slow down, and summer hair were sung.

I didn't exactly pay attention to Panic as I only came for TAI and Cobra but they were good too, im not really into them. They had a giant screen behind them and constantly noted how beautiful and single Aussie girls looked. Yes Ryan I am single, what are you suggesting?

All in all it was a completing experience and I hope to catch them down under again soon.

Just imagine everything I said before but.... with this on the end....Ok?
Coz the other one was sorta like Love and how it affects you and this one is more the consequences of it if you give in to it..

Love is the one who fucks us over...
Love manipulates us into pulling it over our eyes,
That one object of desire is perfected, and untouchable,
Nothing wrong is ever right by them,
Every past mistake is cast out the window in favor of seeing what we want to,
When we want to,
Oh how you wish they knew,
That their very presence was causing you pain and joy at the same time
Smile politely as they walk past, but they never see you,
And when they finally do, you wish invisible were a blanket you could pull over your head,
So disappear into the crowd,
Just another person among people,
Lay awake at night and let the butterflies multiply inside your gut,
So much so that you fear anymore torment would rip you apart,
Stare fixed into forbidden eyes and hope,
Pray that you'll make it out alive,
That the most important part of your being is not torn into pieces, and burnt into the ash that darkens the sky

I just found out that Jack Bassam Barakat and myself share a birthday! (18th June) It strangely makes me feel insanely happy.....Ha, Now I have to celebrate for us both... And eat cake for us both, and If he wants he can come to my house and celebrate with me *hint, hint*..........Yay for us....... But we'll have to wait for next year....

So here i am writing and then the TV announces to me that Pamela Anderson is going into Big Brother (for those that don't know, Big Brother is a TV show that takes like 16 people and puts them in a house as a social experiment and films them for 24 hours a day, for 3 months straight. Each week a person is evicted and the last person wins a $million, Oh and that house is at Dreamworld which is like 10 minutes from my house)...It seems weird to me that they need Pamela Anderson to come into the house for only 3 days to boost their ratings....Any way i wanted to know what you think about it? Weird or totally acceptable and I should just keep my opinion to myself? 

Love is the one who makes fools of us all, Who makes us stumble over our words and then stutter to voice them...

Love is the one who gives us unknown feelings and no instructions on how to use them...

Love forces situations to become awkward, however awkward they already are, makes our cheeks flush red as if winter air was always present...

Love plants thoughts in you head and waters them constantly so they grow uncontrollable...

Love is the one who keeps us up at night with hope of the one who might someday keep us warm at night... 

Fools of love we have become....

Man this is the second time i've had to write this....stupid fucking wireless internet!

Anyway what i wrote and am writing now is....

Im in need of enertainment so to entertain myself im going to tell you all random shit you probably don't care about..

First im bored, very very bored, im at home folding clothes for my mum (yes I spell it M-U-M) and you tube-ing things....Like watching All time low videos over again....They are the craziest people ever and i love them so....with Alex Gaskarth my newest infatuation.....

I've always wondered how I keep falling in love with people I've never met and know only on the basis of what I see and hear....such is the 5th time ts happened but I don't try and fight it, just go with the flow... None of my friends like him (Bar one [THANK YOU MIKAILA!] but I guess that means I have him all to myself....and the thousands of other girls who like him).... He knows what I mean (Keria Knightly)  at least im trying!

So its the holidays over and under here....and freezing cold cause its winter!!!!! Its very hard trying to occupy myself throughout the whole 2 weeks ( I know, what a rip off! I wanted 4)...

Warped tour lookes insanly fun though.....now im bummed cause Im not there..

Now im hungry.....craving chocolate pancakes and super concentrated juice...so im gonnna go do that.......I apologise for my inherent abuse of full stops and boring facts of my life.....

Love as always....